ahhh the first time :)

this is the first time not being moody when back to home,
good one right?

enjoy your 4 months summer my notthingham peeps!!
will miss you guys very muchhie :))

take good care especially those who are going to US! :))
<3 from me to you! ;)

everyday at this time...

it's already 60days...
60 days from the very last time i saw you, touched you, felt your breath, talked to you, fed you water, asked you to be strong, and told you that i love you...
time flies right?

everyday when comes to night, i miss you.
very much, really a lot..

i hope the angles can tell you that i'm doing fine here..
i have tried my best to study hard, as what i've promised you in our last conversation..the last sentence, very last sentence, that you told me...
i do really hope to make you proud of me.. guess that is the only thing i could do now..

anyway, i hope you are doing alright over there..
i know you miss us as well, don't you? :)

good night.


love.

final solution

here comes my final solution to deal with you, you, you and YOU!!
i wanna squeeze and stuff you all and all into a super duper big big box
and bury it in my deep deep deep heart...

wont let the box open or even come to the surface, until i am ready for you all...

hope the lock is strong enough! wish me luck!!

nights :)

anybody help!!

aahh my dear nuffnang, can you guai guai dei stay at the place that you are supposed to be? i have really no idea how to fix you!!

anybody HELP!! :/

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hmm..just back from work and finished my dinner.. 

dinner at 11pm?? O.O 

yesh!! >.<

anyway, it's happy to breathe air from places other than semenyih, happy to meet new friends other than me alone, happy to do something which can attract my attention from thinking those bad stuffs :)

in short, i'm happy now! 

but.. there is a small pain...

i lost my love - winnie pooh bottle, which followed me only no more than 3 mths T.T

my heart is bleeding...i need to get one exactly the same back!!

nights! keep fighting! :)

i miss you again

overwhelmingly.

but it's still a long long way for me to go, isnt it?

and i'm alone again

sitting there in a daze, let the enormous remorse knock me down...
curl my body up, keep searching an answer that i could never find, for the question that i would ask again and again, forever in my whole life..

i just cant control, i cant.
that's how awful the feeling
i cant face it..
at least not now..
so please...
let me free....
'cause i must shirk from this..

if this is a punishment,
yes, i deserve it.

that's life huh?

when life starts getting tough;

when life forces you to deal with all those you-never-thought-that-you-have-to-face-them-one-day issues/affairs/documents/procedures etc;

when life moves on you found out more and more incredibly bizarre things that you would never expect them to happen but they still turned up;

when life forces you to face the fact that there is no fairy tale in reality;

when life makes you wanna escape from this planet;

when life starts making you to think about 'why live' questions;

and when life, makes you become a miserable girl that you even couldnt recognize yourself,

you start getting emo,
emo and emo and emo.

so when could all these stopppp??

the answer might be,

when there is no more life to go.


do hope the miserable girl could get better in the surroundings with her bosom friends.
will you be there with her always?