my hair is a total failure :/

if you see me with a head of weird color of hair, dont be frightened because it's just me having a fail self-dying session for my hair.. oopss wait, it's not one session only, it's THREEE!!!

the very first time:
i bought a pack of black color dye because i thought my hair was too bright due to the previous color and there was new-growth black hair separating my hair into 2 zones, i needed to make it black and consistent in color then only i could dye again.
so i did it.
my hair became black. but the failure of this was that i did not put the black color dye onto my new black hair as i thought there was no difference at that time (u think so too right? wait i show you it's not :P), and the black color did not cover few part of my hair too.

so after being a week of black hairy girl, it's time to make my hair more colorful.
then i bought a pack of Liese Milk Tea Brown (this is the brightest one in the brown series for this brand) and dyed it.
guess what?
the effect = 0!! big fail!! the brown color cannot defeat the black color i have dyed before and my hair showed no color AT ALL!!

so, never give up right the attitude? okay then i bought another pack of Liese, same color.
this time i was very convinced that it would be a success!!
and i decided to leave it on my hair for one hour (the suggestion time is about half an hour but i actually left it for about one and a half hour)
guess what?
the third failure!! there is only very tiny little bit color shown, and it is only under light effect. >.<

and wait, remember the first failure when i did not put black color on my new-growth black hair?
they absorbed the color very well, and that part became the brightest hair on my head now.

so i assume you can imagine how mess up is my hair now!! =.=
and now only i know that salon charges me for a reason.. :(

sigh. no more self-dyed hair i swear!!!

why i always share something sad :/

boo!!

woahkay why i always make my blog being so emotional to you people
sorry :(

well i guess when i'm happy or anything makes me happy, you guys can see from my face, my actions, the way i talk etc etc, but when i'm sad or emo, i think you can only see from my words ;)

anyway no emo today, i just finished one pack of chocolate, it should be able to keep me cheerful for like one day :P

by the way, i found that watching dramas is a very effective way of getting rid of those things that you dont wanna think or dont wanna feel, which i am currently doing, very very addicted to Charmed. hehe!!

i hope i have magic too :/ somehow :P

owhkay back to assignment, my leader is going to kill me if i cant finish my work again :P

ciao!! :)

i feel like this song matches my feeling so much..
can't stop crying every time listening to it..
the difference is only that it was not december but august..

Back To December - Taylor Swift

I'm so glad you made time to see me

How's life? Tell me, how's your family?

I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever

We small talk, work and the weather

Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me

Is still burned in the back of your mind

You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night

And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around and make it alright

I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping

Staying up, playing back myself leaving

When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times

I watched you laughing from the passenger side

And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days

When fear crept into my mind

You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night

And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile

So good to me, so right

And how you held me in your arms that September night

The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking

Probably mindless dreaming

But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't

So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night

And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around and make it alright

I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time, all the time

things have been so emo lately, hehe

wokay i think i need to apologize for my super duper down and blue mood recently
kindly please skip those emo posts if you think it could affect your mood too :P

and seriously i need to get over him, and move forward..
i hope i could do it.. god i really need courage..

now, he can no longer read my blog, i think this is good..
as he has already moved on, and i don't want him to know that i'm actually so vulnerable in dealing the whole broke up thingy..
urgh, i'm so useless

no one to blame for us ending like this
though it was indeed a very beautiful love story..
i have no idea how much time i need to take to bury our memories
but i wish it takes no time because i'm almost suffocated in this..
and things just get worse when it comes to mid-night..
especially when i'm alone..

sigh.. i just don't wanna dream of him again..
never ever
tell me if you have any medication/ meditation/ whatsoever to help me get rid of him
i'm willing to try :)
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bad thing happened to my good friend recently..
i hope she can be strong and tough while facing all those pressure and sadness
i have gone through it, i can fully understand her feeling and fear...
i pray for her well being and also people she loves...



cheers :)

总是在突然的某个时候
就会疯狂的想你……

这种毫无预兆的疯狂
让手无寸铁的我无法招架
我只能屈服
我只能认输
我只能认命
我也只能任自己疯狂的想你
连自己都要被吞噬掉的疯狂想你

我下了无数次决心
我不要为你所动
可我害怕做不到
我害怕一个不小心
就被想你的思潮淹没
所以我在可以出去玩的时候
总是不会留守

可你该知道
我是那么喜欢一个人宅着
只是我还是没能避开只有我一个人的世界

每次只有我一个人的时候
我都无法控制的想你
想到想哭
想到最后真的控制不住的哭了

然后开始疯狂的找笑话
强迫自己看笑话
看能让别人笑的东西
我庆幸我的笑点不高
每次看都会笑
只是笑着笑着眼泪却更多
然后泣不成声……

每次想你的时候
我看笑话
我吃巧克力
嘴角是上扬的
嘴里是甜味的
可心里却只是你
想你、念你

一首歌曲
会想到你
一些字眼
会想到你
一篇文字
会想到你
一部电影
会想到你
一张侧脸
会想到你
一个笑容
会想到你
一点温暖
会想到你

才发现
一个不小心
我也变得如此脆弱
才发现
随便一个不小心
就会踩到想你的地雷
然后把自己也炸得粉碎


在遇到你之前的我
是可以毫无顾忌的删掉你的一切
可不知道为什么这次却做不到?
我也不知道自己到底是怎么了

我承认我很想你
可我不打扰你
我想你是我一个人的事
我们 从头到尾
也可以是我一个人的事

我还是快乐的

things are kinda getting out of control...
i blame myself, but why i don't hate you at all...

hang over

haha dont worry i haven't experienced a real hang over.... yet  lol

yesterday, we had Sherlyn's belated birthday celebration dinner at Susan's Bistro @Bandar Mahkota Cheras, after that we went to a lounge where Crenie works to chill :)

the place was quite nice, small but warm
and i like the boss, he is very friendly and hospitable, it was really nice to chat with him :)
he shared his collections, a 20-year Hennessey VSOP, a Martell Cordon Bleu, and a Johnnie Walker Black Label with us, and i love the VSOP, the smoothest i have ever drunk! :D

the point is, i drank beer too, and it was Tiger!! :S
i seldom drink beer seriously, it makes me uncomfortable
too much gas and i really can't burp it out
but yesterday i broke my record, which is one can of beer only, and drank like god-knows-how-many glasses, and i never tried Tiger before that :P

i did have fun with you guys though! :D don't feel guilty for making me vomit because it's completely alright for me! :) and i have learnt not to be greedy when playing in-between! lol

okay going to have my brunch now
photos will up soon ;)

cheers! :D