so long struggling

i have been in a dilemma
someone please
please tell me what to do
i really have lost my mind...

just tell me,
reality or dream?

for once, you were my world, you were my everything.
after the incidence, i woke up, and told myself not to be lost in you.
i did it, at least i thought so.

till now, only i realised i was still so lost in you.
and till now, only am i sober.
i shouldnt have put all my trust and hope on you.
ppl change.
so as you.
and you know what,
once hopes were down, you would never get them back,
at least not the complete one.

here comes the last thing i would want to see it happen,
the one i was always so scared of it coming to the surface.
yet it comes still.

what should i do?
guess we both have the answer.

i guess this time, mamamia cant help to heal anymore...
i mean, there is too much for me lately, dont you think?
when on earth would i have my peaceful life back?
or maybe i just never have...

mimimamimoo~~

hey i'm back!! :D
going to dye my hair tomorrow!
what color would you like to see on me?
here you go some options:
green, grey, purple, red, orange, blue, or, brown

the answer was out right? :P

sorry i know it's freakishly stupid XD

anyway, my summer has been a blank so far, and i still havent found the right mood to study..
maybe after dying my hair, my mind would gonna change too? hahaa :P

for whoever hasnt watched eclipse, go watch it!! :D
and i love big apple durian donut!

byes!

100-day

it's tomorrow..
never realised it could be so fast...
it's too fast..
so is everything, from the very beginning to the end..

well, i miss you still...
this will never change

today is your day

took out my phone as usual, typed a message with my sincere wishes..
but sadly.. i didnt know where to send the message to...
because the phone number no longer belongs to you...
how i wish i could get your phone number over there, if there is any...

you know, for me, it seems like you never leave..
you are just working outstation..
not able to come back in short period...
just like what you did before...
everything has remained the same...

how i hope, how i wish...
would it ever come true?


happy father's day!!
i hope you get my message..

new one new one!!! :DDD

yeahhhhh~~~~~ finally i got my new handphone yesterday!!!
HTC Desire Smartphone!!!
it's AWESOME you know!! and me is gonna love it for very long time eh!! :DDDD

but i have to admit lar... smartphone is for smart ppl =.=
till now i still dunno how to use it ler... sigh >.<

and yesh you got it,
i was soooooo EXCITED since i have decided to buy it!!!

will share more bout it with you when i know how to use it ya! lol

and to all my nottingham peeps who are working:
HAPPY WORKING!!! :DDD
and good luck for everything! :)))

ahhh the first time :)

this is the first time not being moody when back to home,
good one right?

enjoy your 4 months summer my notthingham peeps!!
will miss you guys very muchhie :))

take good care especially those who are going to US! :))
<3 from me to you! ;)