u know,
there is a way for us to achieve true happiness,
that is think positively.
yea, everyone knows it i bet.
sounds very easy but somehow difficult to do exactly like that.

i had been the one who always follow my own mind,
without thinking whatsoever consequences that could actually happen.
and i always trusted my first feeling,
when i feel it right, i follow it; when i think it is wrong, i throw/kick it completely away from my life.
also, when i was facing failure, i upset, i felt awful, i kept thinking of any worse thing that might happen then.
so i never realized, when one door of happiness closes, another one will be opened.
God is fair, definitely.
but often some look so long at the closed door that they could not see the one that has been opened for them.
and me was one of them.

throughout these few years,
i thought i have changed, a lot.
i thought i was strong enough to make through whatever.
until recently, when i was forced to face the crisis that i could never imagine,
i know i am not as tough as i thought i could be.
and in my deep heart,
i am not as happy like what people think about me.
i was only pretending just like i was really happy all the while,
i hate to be like this kind of me.
i want my true laughs come back,
from the bottom of my heart that had gone away for few years.

so from now,
i would like to change
i WANT to think positively,
as the way of thinking could change everything, from awful to wonderful.
i want to treat every challenge as a door to happiness,
and smile always, be tough to any obstacles,
bring true happiness to everyone around me,
because
i want we all happy!! :)

outing later,
excited excited excited!! :D :D